what the heck am i waiting for?

for the freaking snow to fall in Malaysia?
for the moon to turn orange?
for someone to prove that the world is flat?
for the last moment on my death bed?

i wonder why do i keep torturing myself like that.

all i've been doing is wait.

waiting for the time i get my ass off to start studying
waiting for time to pass
waiting for everything to be over
just waiting, nothing else but waiting.

i must stop doing this every night. it's ruining my studies, my future, my life..

You're better than that and you don't have to validate yourself through another person's life. Every individual is an island and can be an island. You do not need a significant other to live life. So stop seeking something that isn't there and move on. -Foamy-


in the end, i still succumb to what's not there. what a dumb, thick-skulled, useless, emotional, troublesome nimrod, not even worth being labeled a bitch. i should be burnt to death.

sigh.


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