aggravation!

>have you at any point of your life feel so helpless, so suppressed? i always do, and it's making me so sick of myself at times.. *sigh* what can i ask for more? me, being a melancholic kinda person, will never be able to take things into my hand, all i do is just let things be.. arghh.. frustration!!

i will always be overpowered, constrained by the sanguine, forever influencing people to think like they do.. just because i'm quiet most of the times, i do have MY OWN VIEWS and i DO NOT HAVE TO AGREE WITH YOU, bitch. i always give in to you cos i couldnt be bothered, but that doesnt mean you can climb over my head and dance around. ARGH! no one will listen to me. i can only win and shut you up with my outburst of rage and foul language, yet i wont be able to get my point through. but i've been so subdue to even want to argue with you. this is so saddening and to think of it childish that i am only able to resolve things through profanity.. tsk. i need to release my frustration.

why must i always think of others before myself? i'm so sick and tired of being taken for granted.. can't i freaking put myself first before anything else? or at least some people would put me at a level just as important as themselves? oh gawd, i should stop being so immature.. like la people would notice me at all.. BAH! however much concern you have for others, they will not necessarily care as much for you. self-centered PIGS.. stupid koko.

i'll most probably forget about everything after awhile and continue on with my pathetic self.. tsk.. lame..

gosh, i have to live with myself.