well as ironic as it seems, i just watched the movie and it pretty well fits my situation. but i'd really hope not to have the same ending. i really do. i know or at least i think i know i should not put so much hope, well that's what everyone says. but frankly, it's the only thing that can keep me sane for now. i really do not know how to hold on but to just hope. the hope i used to have brought me happiness and i really wish that this hope can bring me back my happiness.
i hate that i've to see you now knowing that you cannot be with me.
i hate myself for bringing things up. or this wouldnt happen.
i hate not being able to feel your warm embrace every time i see you.
i hate the fact that i can no longer lie on your chest and listen to your heartbeat.
i hate not being able to go to secret recipe like we said we would.
i hate not being able to hug you anymore and feel loved.
i hate to think that you no longer love me anymore.
i hate myself for not being able to cheer you up when you were down before.
i hate being so helpless not knowing how to make you happy.
i hate not being able to catch the sunset at the beach with you.
i hate not being able to go to the beach with you.
i hate not being able to cuddle you in the movies.
i hate that we can't share slurpees anymore like we used to.
i hate not being able to hear you sing for me again.
i hate crying everyday over thoughts of you, us and not being together anymore.
i hate myself for not knowing how to face you and yet i want to see you.
i hate that i didn't get to bake you a cake.
i hate thinking that i'm not your worth.
i hate crying over songs that reminds me of the times we shared.
i hate not being able to sit in the car driving aimlessly not knowing where to go.
i hate that we didn't get a chance to share a banana split.
i hate that i wont be able to feel you plant a kiss gently on my forehead.
i hate not being able to go through things we planned together.
i hate knowing that i will not be able to celebrate my birthday ever with you, not even once.
i hate myself for being too attached to you, building my whole world around you.
i hate crying myself to sleep and waking up crying.
i hate myself for making you worry.
i hate myself for being such a failure, a mistake, your regret.
i hate not being able to hold your hand tightly.
i hate that there will be no more photos of us.
i hate that we didn't get a chance to sing together.
i hate not being to wrestle and tickle with you.
i hate that i will no longer be able to feel your care, love and attention anymore.
i hate not being able to be the one you would do sweets things to.
i hate that i wont be able to spend time with you anymore.
i hate not being your special one.
i hate myself.
as much as i hate what you've done to me and the things i'll not have with you, i still love you with all my heart and soul. i really do.
i shall never ever be as happy as when i'm with you.
i was not meant to be loved.
1. don't hate urself for bringing it up. coz if it was there, it was an eventuality that u would have to face sooner or later
ReplyDelete2. everyone, when they face a breakup, especially if they're the ones trying to hang on to the relationship, feels the way you feel. trust me. i know. try to create a new routine for yourself that doesn't involve the things you used to do with him.
3. if u remove the stuff that reminds you of him, it MIGHT help. it helped for me
4. you ARE meant to be loved. don't let ONE heartbreak cause you to feel that you aren't worthy of being loved. but if you are going to be able to be loved, you have to let urself heal and move on from a breakup.
if he doesn't see you the way you want him to, he doesn't deserve you. you can't be someone else. and no guy should EVER require for you to be someone you're not.
cheer up, girl. call u sometime soon. sorry. i'm having a killer week.
smile. the world isn't all that bad. breaking up isn't the end of the world.
my dear...please cheer up...it breaks my heart to see my ol' pal feels this way, as must as whut u r feeling rite now is inevitable, keep it in mind that u still have US, ur friends...the ones that will be here for ur ups and downs..dont feel so miserable..it's just a phase in your life that u have to go tru' and eventually learn someting from.
ReplyDeletewhutever happens, we will be here for you. and as j-ann said; it's not the end of the world..u still have a long way to go..break-ups are hard 2 endure n the healing period wud seem endless..nevertheless..it will stil pass n at the end of the day, u'll just realise tht u've survived yet n other day and is even getting stronger whilst ur thoughts of the failing relationship becomes blur-er each passing day. u know whut i mean?
we've all been there..i know it's very hard for u 2 'get' whut we're saying when u're in that sticky situation...just rmb tht we'll b here.ring me up whenever u need me alrite? love u girll..<--SEE U WERE MEANT TO BE LOVED!
p/s: whutever happens in ur life rite, be it good or bad..a failing relationship or a bad experience, learn frm it..it'll do u good in d future..take it as a lesson tht u have to learn in order to live better nex time.. HUGS!!