trying to walk on with such an immense load on your back is so hard, so tiring...
i really don't know for how long and how far i can carry this load..

it's so tiring staying strong, showing everyone i'm okay. i'm not strong, i never was. this face you see with tears i try to hide is so hard to show.
i feel like collapsing though i know u wont be there to catch me anymore. i'm just tired. just so tired. i want to rest. i want to not think anymore.

everyday starts and ends with never ending thoughts of you.
i've been thinking so much that it's giving me a headache..
i'm falling sick soon.

please stop these teardrops from forming in my eyes..
please stop these thoughts from forming in my mind..

i beg of you.