agony

my throat is in pain. i've got tonsillitis.. my tonsils are infected.. oh great.. my first line of immune system is down, and i've got an exam next week.. that explains the tremendous pain in my throat... but that's not the best part, big white patches could be seen on my tonsils.. well, that's what the doctor referred it to, but i'd say it's more like white bulges growing on my tonsils.. not only one but a few on both sides.. eww.. -_- it keeps growing that i feel that it's trying to close up my throat.. you can say i'm getting a lil paranoid but.. urgh.. i feel like shoving a small scraper and scrape off each and every single white thingys off like scraping barnacles off the propellers of a well-season boat.. what a relief that'll be.. and that's if i don't suffer having my mouth flooded with blood... that'll be double the eww...
anyway, guess my reflexes are getting a bit slow by the day... i only felt the pain for the past 2 days whereas the doctor said that the infection's kinda bad and could not possibly be only for 2 days.. eh? lol.. but the throat isn't the only thing bothering me.. my lymph nodes on my neck are swelled up as big as an elephant's leg.. (ok.. maybe i'm kinda exaggerating.. but the point is that it's uncomfortable!) considering that i've been sleeping for at least 8 hours for the past 2 days (excluding afternoon naps, hence i'm on9 so early just trying to finish my assignment..) i look like hell.. lol.. so pale.. and those eyes... it's as if i havent slept for a week.. those dark circles... *shivers* lol... i think i can qualify as a panda bear if i put on just a few more pounds! and voila! panda amy! lol..
and because of those dreadful 'barnacles', i'm so deprived from, FOOD! i can barely eat solid food cos it freaking hurts every time i swallow.. >.< *scrape scrape scrape* wahahaha~~!! but it always makes me wanna throw up each time i have my finger near to it... bah! not only that, taking my antibiotics makes me wanna regurgitate everything out again.. it's as if my esophagus is defying gravity.. it's going anti-peristalsis.. (if there's actually such a thing..) waaa~~!

i want to eat... -_-"